in my dream you were mine again

we had our love, it was oh so true…
but one of us had to be stupid breaking what
we had in two
now here we are, distance apart, away from each
other’s glance
one of us still wondering, if “US” is still
possible, is there still a chance…

you made your decision, it was crystal clear
it has been a year, yet why is it so hard for
me still
memories of you and me still runs in my head
I hate the feeling, brings my tears to shed

you were in my dream last night, I was
shocked, it felt so real
your kiss, your hug, that I longed for so long
just to feel you again, time I will kill
in that moment I prayed that end never comes
but I woke up, back to reality, pain and
regret is all I felt, heartache till I calm

- jordanocjseville 05/01/2013

photo taken from google

foolish heart

you had me for a ride
why’d you have to do that?
testing water like it was just nothing
here I am, a fool to fall for it
now down again as usual, whats new?
damn this foolish heart… so vulnerable, so blue
why can’t somebody just be true
and show real interest
feeling so stupid now
hating myself for allowing you
but I will not act revenge
I will just stay here, quiet and silent
for I know one day, we all will get what we deserve

- jordanocjseville 4/14/2013

 

picture taken from the google 

can’t play with broken strings

broken strings of hopes and dreams
shattered memories crumbles down to million pieces
you showed your true colors and now I’m scared
feels like I never really knew the person behind the angelic face
devious cunning smile is what you are equipped

you left me clueless; so confused to what just happened
invicible chain you binded me, for every easy pull you draw me in
what is this spell you had over me
seems breaking free is not an easy option
how long can I take this? how hard should I endure
the heartaches and pain, I dont want anymore of this

all I wanted is someone to love me, who I am in love too
why is it so damn hard to happen
wishing praying that someday, one day you will feel the same way
with open hands, still I hope…

- jordanocjseville (03/07/2013)

pic taken from the net

unexpected

Just the thought of it, of us, makes me quiver
Unexpected feeling of cloud nine is what you deliver
Not certain of what our future beholds
Random thought of you, is what my mind unfolds

Every moment spent together, I treasure, moves us closer
Your scent is what I yearn for now, what I always linger
Realized this is madness, is this really happening?
Only to find, I think I have been bitten, by the love bug again…

Seeing you every day is what I wanted to do
A single glance is all it takes, my heart you would blew
Love? Could this be? No this can’t be right…
Every day now I have been thinking, what may, what might

Shiver down my spine, but a good one I may say
To have these feelings for you, my cards on the table I lay
On this day I am revealing my true feelings for you
Mindful of the right words to utter, whatever this may bring just keep in mind these are all true

Overwhelming this may be to you, as it is for me too
Not trying to get you off guard, I have been open to how I care for you, from there; I know you then have a clue
Go ahead, it’s your turn, what do you have to say?
<3 this heart is what I offer… do you feel the same way?

-jordanocjseville (02/14/2013)

too early…

time seems slow if you’re not here
time runs too fast if you are near
what is this feeling I don’t understand
but just seeing your angelic face, completes my day…

your scent keeps on lingering
like a drug I keep on wanting
everyday I kept on reading signs
but up to now still confused, got no clue what you had in mind

anything for you, I will do
what am i doing? I dont understand
weve been spending a lot of time lately
I dont know where we are heading, driving me crazy

you crack me up even with those silly jokes
like someone poisoned, you’re the only antidote
your cunning stare, your cute sweet smile
you, doing those things, make a bad day worthwhile

I dont want to break the silence yet
I feel its too early for that
for now I just wanna keep you where you are
scared to what will happen, lets see if this will last

I’ll hold on and cover this feeling, for as long as I can
until I can no longer hold it in anymore, will that day come?
I have feelings for you, special and true
unfortunately, I don’t have the courage yet, but hoping you feel the same way too…

- jordanocjseville (02/06/2013)

(picture taken from the net)

what happened?

what is this feeling, familiar in all context
your show of interest is confusing me
made me think if should I go down the same road again?
or maybe I should just stay put, let this feeling pass me by…

days went by, we got closer and closer
mixed signals is all am getting, no clue where we are going
never a day in a week we miss to see each other
emotion caving in something deep is transforming

just as things are in its hype
you left without a clue, no farewell, no goodbye
now im standing here, trying to check what just happened
could it be you turned out to be the best thing i never had?

Well now i know, i have accepted the fact
I lost sight of love, good thing I kept myself intact
youre my angel in the painful journey from previous love
now I realized and thankful, you were never really meant for
me, good thing, now goodbye…

- jordanocjseville 01/22/2013

(picture taken from the internet)

I hope you are happy

My heart shattered into a million pieces
Sunk like the titanic, post hitting the iceberg
Feeling feverish after hearing what you’ve uttered
Then you breaking a smile not for me murdered my spirit
Something in me died that day of triple twelve
Like a baby’s chord being detached from the mother’s womb
It gave me life before but now telling me it’s time to move on
I swore I felt the time paused for a minute
Unbearable pain took over my heart and my body
Remembering the pain I caused you before
Is this the karma that I was waiting for?
At the back of my mind, this is it, I deserve this
Unimaginable loneliness is the only thing I felt
Cold dark future was what I foresee
Blue, black and grey are the colors of the day for me
I don’t understand this feeling, unfamiliar, full of fear
At that moment it feels like the end of the world came near
I had to fake a happy smile so you won’t notice
But I am not great of an actor so tears formed in my eyes
The result of a heavy heart, and getting caught off guard
Rolled into one forming a hindrance in my breathing
I can’t breathe I need to get out of here
I want to run away not knowing where to go
Just run… run far away from where we are
I know I should be happy for you but what can I do?
I’m only human after all, and I still do feel something for you
But I know it won’t matter now, for you have found someone new
Someone better than me, who took you out of the blue
I just have to accept this, the best way I can
Can’t help feeling lonely for me and the future I hold
Oh Lord is this really happening, is this my end and time
I’m in a darker path now, so lost, I need you now…

- jordanocjseville 12/13/2012